‘Time and Tide Waits for none’ , remember the phrase?
But he was told to wait, and he agreed… a mistake?
Year 2017 – they said its fresh, take some time.
He obliged without much thought, everything felt so divine.
Year 2018 – give it another year, your family’s need.
Obliged again, but now it was starting to bleed.
“You shall be on your own”, said one.
“Nothing’s wrong”, said many. But by his side were none.
Year 2019 – A decision… a fight inside and out.
Surrounded by friendly foes, all he could do was shout.
He forced himself to smile, indebted …reasons too many to count.
Inside it was helplessness and guilt, madness starting to mount.
His laughter was infectious, deceived everyone around him.
Even the jokes were quite good, hid the tears and the grim.
Taking his own life wasn’t the option, he was scared as well.
Waves of negativity rising inside, away from all he started to dwell.
I see him sitting on the couch in the corner of the room.
See him staring into the wall in front…I see him in anger fume.
I did try to help, tried stopping time for him.
Time did stop, the people around didn’t.
‘Time and Tide Waits for none’ , remember the phrase?
But he was told to wait, and he agreed… a mistake?
-Champak Sharma
